I wish that there was a socially acceptable way to say, “I’m having a bad mental health day and need you to pay attention to me,” without alienating everyone.
or: “I’m having a bad mental health day and need to be on my own for a while so please don’t be mad if I cancel our plans on short notice.”
It’s today! (technically ‘today’ haha it’s the 8th but we celebrated early because my sister is leaving tomorrow and she helped plan the party haha) Thank you! :)
Everyone is finally gone, wowww. I never had a surprise party. It was so unexpected but after a few birthdays of feeling, idk how to put this, unloved? I mean I know i’m loved I just always felt like everyone makes a big deal out of their birthdays and mine was never anything. But tonight it was. I had all my aunts and uncles, except 1, there, my cousins, my best friend, etc. I honestly just felt like crying from happiness when everyone yelled surprise and the lights went on and I saw everyone there. Just knowing everyone is there for just you is a nice feeling that I haven’t had in a really really long time, I didn’t want it to end :’)
Happy birthday, Nelly!!!
This might not sound flattering to other people, but I think you’ll appreciate it…I consider you my “anxiety buddy.” Because you are the only other person I’ve ever known personally who has as much trouble with anxiety as I do. And it’s been so helpful to me to be able to talk to you about my anxieties and to hear you talk about yours..I think it makes me feel less crazy. Even if some of our anxieties are different ones, we still understand that “feeling” that each other feels. The one that those who don’t suffer from anxiety just don’t quite understand.
I always know you’ll be reading my messages, and you are very good at calming me down. You are more level-headed than me, even though I’m the “old” one, and you can point out things I don’t see sometimes when I’m upset or pissed. You are wise beyond your years! Sometimes I think….I’m 23 years old than her, I really should’ve thought of that myself. Haha. But I don’t usually, so I am thankful you are there to help me out.
I’m so glad we were able to meet last year. Maybe some day I’ll be able to drag Richard down there again. ;) He really loved those baked beans at Rock ‘n’ Roll Ribs…I’ll bribe him with those. Haha.
I hope you have a great birthday weekend and trip!! Enjoy!!
Thank you so much, Carol!! Haha we totally are anxiety buddies. I don’t know anybody else with anxiety and you’re the only person I feel comfortable talking to about it so yes, we’re anxiety buddies haha. You’ve been such a saint in listening to my rambles and helping me through them as well. Taking advice from you has been so easy and such a blessing to have. I never feel alone anymore I know you’re just a text away, we really balance each other out don’t we haha. It’s unfortunate that both myself and Richard are the same and hate leaving home because I would totally come visit haha hopefully you have another reason to come down here soon besides me :P
But thank you so much and i’ll try to just chill out and enjoy my trip haha :)
100 level tickets to the Panthers/Lightning game are $109. It’s ridiculously tempting to get on a plane and go for that price.
There’s some on Stubhub for cheaper, for example tonight there’s lowers for $16, cheaper than parking haha. I know I shouldn’t take pride in that but I kind of do? Yeah we’re not the best team but we still play great hockey and going to games are so much fun no matter who’s playing so i’ll take it haha.